I went to OA a few years ago and released 40lbs. I had hoped to release 50lbs...
I kept the 40lbs off for three years and then over the past three years I have gained back 20lbs...

I am discouraged. Angry at myself. Tired and more recently fearful -- it's affecting my health. :-(

Every morning I wake up hopeful and on occasion I am able to string together a 'few good days." More often I blow it. Mostly due to a lack of planning.
I love to work out so that is not my problem--it's sugar and anything white.
It's emotional eating.

My prayer today--that God will do in me that which I in my own strength seemed powerless to do.. that I will find one two or three people that I can walk this journey with.

Thanks for reading this.

I can totally relate. If you don't find the help you are looking for through OA, please consider the Beck Diet Solution and we have a thread on these boards as well.

Have you gone to a meeting? Have you worked step 1?
OA is more than a diet, it's a new way of life when you admit you are powerless over food and your life is unmanageable.
It works if you work it.