OK, I have a question but need to set the scene a bit.
I was in a bad relationship for about a year and a half, pretty rocky from the beginning...which is when my eating and weight really got out of control. Anyways, even tho we are not together he still calls and I still see him sometimes. I really don't know why I can't just totally kick him to the curb because I know that he is bad for me. Perfect example...tonight I spoke with him and it was the same old same old..him telling me he loves me, me getting mad because he has a way of getting me to say stuff(love him back) and I just get mad and hang up the phone. Next thing I know I'm down in the kitchen making pasta with green beans and potatoes. Wierd combo I know but it was what I was craving. Oh yeah, a cinnamon bun too. Craziness. I know I don't love him the way I used to...too much hurt and distrust for me to want him like before but I can't seem to totally let go. We really have nothing in common and are on two totally different levels. Not to be snotty but when I speak to him I have to explain words he doesn't understand...it was cute in the beginning but I hate it now. He says I am the reason he is getting his life straight but funny thing is I lost so much this past 1 1/2 years. Ironic, isn't it? Before him I never had a problem breaking a bad relationship off and I have never needed a man in my life. I alway thought of myself as a strong, independent woman and I really question that now.
My question is why do women seem to allow stupid stuff to happen and deal with situations that are bad for them and they know it???? How does one break the cycle and move to a better place?
Know this is long and thanks for letting me sound off...He just pushes my buttons and puts me in a place I don't like to be.