Hi everyone - sigh, where do I start? I'm almost 26 years old and weigh about 205 lbs. In May of 2012, I started at 309 lbs. My lowest weight was around 170 lbs in May of 2013. Yes, that's about 135 lbs in a year. In June of 2013, I started dating my now live in boyfriend and he has already bought a ring to propose, I'm thinking on my birthday in December.. So, what's not to be ecstatically happy about, right?
Well, I binge eat all the time and start a "new" diet EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. For about the entirety of my life. I don't know what to do to re-motivate myself anymore. I FEEL gross and overweight, but my boyfriend is completely happy with me. I think that gives me the "okay" to not start hardcore dieting again. Yes, I want to lose weight, but yes, I am happy too.
Any advice from anyone? Funny how you can still be down over 100 lbs and feel like garbage. Even in the 160s I felt fat even though my cheeks were sunken in. I'm 5'9 by the way.
PS: I should add that in the past year and a half I moved out of my parents house for the first time, moved in with a boyfriend for the first time and we're now looking to buy a house. LOTS of changes in a short amount of time!
HELP!