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Originally Posted by BlueHorse17
...I ended up getting too satisfied with myself and then got scared to gain the weight back. Sooo... I ended up hiking it up to Starvation Mode. I don't think so, if anything this is restriction mode. Being "satisfied" with yourself only means that you were relaxed and happy and allowed yourself to enjoy a little bit of food. It's completely normal and not a bad thing, but it's innevitable that when you restrict yourself so much that you will react with binging, restriction is the major cause of all binging.
I had starved myself for so long
I have blown up...and I have so much fat ... (Yes, they were HUGE binges!)
I'm lost about how to eat, and what to eat. I almost feel like I am starting over.
/// it hasn't stopped effecting me and I'm not sure when it's going to. try and flush my system out.
I picked out some of the things that stood out to me in your post. You're coming down hard on yourself. You've managed to lose a lot of weight and yet you're at a loss about how to eat. I think that intuitive eating can give you some tools to learn how to trust yourself and also to learn how not to be so hard on yourself which is what is causing all the binges in the first place.
I don't know what your stats are but did you lose a little too much weight? There is something called weight set point which resonates some truth although I really hate the theory! Your body is perhaps trying to find it set point.