Hi guys! I have been posting randomly in the IP protocol section but not really anywhere else. I am struggling a little bit here and need some advice/boosting up.... Basically, I wrote this the other day, and I can't get it out of my head:
I have wrinkles, dimples, flaps, and divots where I have never had them before. There is more hanging, jiggling, and waving going on here than there should be. While losing weight feels wonderful, and I look better in my clothes, I am struggling with what my body looks like out of them. This is pretty hard for someone who has never lost a bunch of weight to understand, but no matter what I do, I will never wear a bathing suite comfortably, There will be no body-con dresses, or exuberant waves of hello or goodby if I am wearing a sleeveless shirt. No amount of exercising or lifting will tone this stuff up...To put it bluntly, I am starting to look like a deflated balloon...
I've never really struggled with body image before, even at my highest weight. It is difficult to deal with this now.
I am really struggling with this. I don't even know if surgery will be an option for me when I get to goal or not. I'm just feeling... like....