I'm new here and new to weight loss. I mean, I'm not new to WANTING to lose it, but I'm knew to focusing on it and making it a goal. I have been overweight basically my entire life and it's an enormous insecurity and barrier in my life that holds me back greatly. I don't care about being skinny or thin, or dieting, I want to have a better lifestyle and I want to get to a healthier weight so it can stop holding me back. My weight is an enormous shame for me… I am so ashamed. I hate even meeting people in person because I feel like they will see me differently because of my weight. My weight blocks out the real me and it really sucks. I'm such a different person on the inside than what I am able to express on the outside.
I definitely have a problem with overeating and eating the wrong kind of stuff. I can do so well, and then I break and go eat that entire bag of chips telling myself "this will be the last time". AAHH. I'm also a student and very low income, so sometimes getting healthy food is difficult and I end up having to buy something high calorie and full of fat because its cheap and will keep me full longer than something low calorie. On a day where I have 5 dollars to eat, buying a salad isn't the best plan. It's tough. I'm going to be looking for work, so hopefully that area will get better. Self control is so hard for me though, it always has been in every area of my life honestly. I am too ashamed and embarrassed to seek help or support in real life so I thought I would start off here.