I'm catching up and some of you have written multiple posts so my replies are going to be a bit fragmented.
Diane - As much as I love and admire your consistency, I do have to admit I've wondered how it is that you manage to stay so upbeat and focused all the time. It's good to know you're human and that you've got your ups and downs like the rest of us.
What you mentioned about seeing your relatives and thinking "that's not what I want to become" is also a big part of my motivation. There's a physical component. Being heavy in your 60s and 70s is hard. There's also a mental/emotional component, though. I see how a lot of my family have shut themselves off from the world and find their comfort in food. That kind of painful isolation isn't something that I want for myself ten, twenty years down the line and I'm working hard to create a different life for myself.
Laurie - I'm not going to be on board with the second trainer boy challenge. That would be giving him too much space in my head and I don't like him enough to do that. I used to have a thing for men who rejected me (mother/abandonment issues manifesting) and his fat-shaming ways get a little too close to that button being pressed for me. If someone isn't bringing joy and sunshine into my life, I've got no place for them. He's not offering that kind of energy so he can just suck it. Twice.
I've also never understood people who can just have a little of something and then leave it. By the same token I'm sure they can't understand why it is there can't be any survivors by the end of the day when a bag of chips is opened. It's humbling, but I'm learning to slowly accept there are things I simply can't do well. Portion control is definitely one of them.
I'm glad to hear that you have a plan for making it through this wobbly time. Checking in, planning out your food... all of these things build upon each other and create some daylight between you and that last binge/compulsive eating moment. It's hard, but you're doing it and that's great.
Jenni - Hi jennislowloser!!
I'm glad you're sticking with it even when it gets long and slow and boring!!
Uber - I'm seriously struggling with eating out as well. Massive kudos to you for scraping off the "lite" mayo and making the best out of a challenging situation.
I recently read that drop crotch pants have (again?) been declared fashionable. Your weight loss has made those droopy capris cutting edge.
Now that I've conquered Laurie's awful trainer boy I'm poking around for a new challenge and the thought of doing something for Christmas is resonating for me. Would you like to set a goal together?
Lotus - Isn't that great when we have days where we hear just what we need to hear? Those are always such lovely moments and I'm so glad you had a chance to enjoy one of them.
Mandy - The fresh food sounds wonderful! I'm so glad you and your husband are settling in to the new community.
Jessica - Awesome!!!!! Hurrah Verizon!!!!! Being able to work daylight hours and having the possibility of commission!!!!!! I'm so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm fine. Puttering along. I went out to eat on Thursday night and did well, but being able to have some sense of calories is still a real problem. A lot of the foods are completely unique to the region, so I'm left guessing most of the time. Vegetables and proteins are pretty easy to figure out, but there's also a lot of hidden oil and salt/msg in things that can tweak the numbers. I ended up eating in moderation, consciously over-estimating the number of calories I ate, and ending the day at something like 1,700 calories (again with the over-estimation).
One of the things that stuck in my mind from last week's off-plan funk is that I consciously thought to myself how much I hated feeling the way I felt and how much happier I was when I was eating on plan. That has created a niggling thought in the back of my head that I've got some food issues that I also need to actively deal with. So I'm trying to do that as well. I'm starting with avoiding wheat and sugar and will see what other tweaks would be useful as time goes by.