Nori: Thanks for that and you're welcome. Yesterday was just one of those rough days we all have occasionally.
Mandy: Sounds like you have a plan. Just stick with it and you'll be fine. Also, lol, we had tilapia last night! Along with some zucchini. It was yum. Congrats on your maintenance victory.
Laurie: It's been a problem decade for me in the past, but I'm hoping this time will be a little different. Even if I wobble a little, I just don't want to slingshot back up. I don't foresee that happening, though as I've got such a great support group here cheering me on.
I also only have one pair of jeans that I wear. I have a second pair that my brother's fiance picked up in a box of clothes at a yard sale but I never plan to wear them. Not only are they maternity jeans, they're also a horrible, HORRIBLE cut for me. When you're big, you shouldn't be wearing jeans that look like elephant pants. I know that I can fit into a regular size 18 (vs 18W) but I haven't stopped in to try on jeans in a while. All I know for sure is that my current jeans, which are 18W, are about at that point where I have to run them through the dryer every day just so I don't have to tug them up every 10 minutes at work. Perhaps it's time that I invested in a belt to assist with this problem. It'd be cheaper than buying jeans every six weeks. :P
Hang in there. The white-knuckle phase can be tough, but don't let it psyche you out. I imagine that TOM likely isn't doing anything to help with your cravings but I'm confident that you can pull through it. We both can.
Diane: Awesome job navigating the treat minefield at work! And you're doing incredible with your progress. I guarantee that you'll be more satisfied with yourself when all is said and done if you keep giving it your all. Honestly, I don't think any of us will ever be able to not think about our weight because it has been such a huge part of our lives. But, we will be able to think about how far we have come, how much we have accomplished, and we will be able to beam with pride.
The running, yeah, it's something I really look forward to doing. Sometimes I'm doing it and feel like my legs are going to give out on me, but I know that even though it burns, I'm probably not going to die.
Uber: Knowing that we have a great group of people here to support us, free of judgement is one of the biggest helps in the world.
Toasted: It happens to the best of us and you're in excellent company. Realizing that you saw it happening and let it happen can be a great motivational tool for encouraging yourself to re-lose the regain. Just don't beat yourself up over it because even though you've put some on, you've also managed to catch yourself long before crossing back into the 200's and that is a HUGE achievement.
As for me, I think I finally scare the scale straight. Well, sort of, lol. I saw 221.6 fully clothed. I was happy with that. Then I weighed in with just my bra/underwear.... And I saw 219.8 lbs. 219.8... (squee). Of course, you all know me and that number isn't going to get officially recorded until I'm confident it's a real loss. It is, after all, 3 lbs down from yesterday. A nice little whoosh, but I really believe that tempering my excitement for a few days after a whoosh has helped a lot with the sadness that comes if it ends up jumping back up by a few tenths of a pound the next day.
I couldn't have asked for a better start to the day today, though. Yesterday was tough on me. Even after I posted and worked out, for whatever reason, I couldn't quite shake the sad feelings. I'd feel okay for a while and then all I'd want to do is cry a little. Feeling better today. Managed to pick up 2.5 hrs today and another 2 hours tomorrow so my next paycheck (in 2 weeks cause I just got paid today) is going to be pretty nice. The schedule for the week after next posted and it's at 20 hours. I'm a little bummed because I really wanted to see them try and maintain us at slightly higher hours for a little while. Oh well. Besides, even if there were some extra hours to spread around, I'm the last one they'd be offered to. The fact is that I just don't move as fast as the other guys I work with. Most days, anyway. There are certain things - like paint - that I could power through given the chance, but it's rare for our department head to let me do that. I just try to comfort myself with the knowledge that I don't cut corners and I don't complain. If something needs to be done, I get it done.