My name is Jaza and I'm 16 about to be 17 in 9 days, I've been struggling with my weight since the 6th grade. I had got really depressed after my mom had remarried and I turned to food as my comfort. I am a athlete and I honestly think if I wasn't I would be double the size. It's so hard going to high school heavy but I always put up a fake smile and act like it doesn't bother me. At times it can get so depressing and discouraging and for a long time I thought it was fate that I was suppose to be fat and why bother trying when I'm only gonna set myself for failure. I've never been on this site before and hoping I can do this with love support well yea lol. This is do or die for me. Below is something I wrote this morning.
I woke up today with one thought in my mind. How did I ever allow myself to get this big. I'm an athlete, and I'm only 17. I currently weigh a whopping 245 pounds and I have had enough. I've had enough of always behind my team mates or the last one to finish. I'e had enough of constantly struggling to breathe as I walk up my school steep steps. I told myself, this is it. I will never weigh another pound over 245 pounds. It only takes 21 days to break a habit and start a new one. For those 21 days I will NOT consume anything but water and tea. For those 21 I will develop healthy eating habits. For those 21 day I WILL not NOT back down and I WILL push my self harder than I have ever did in my life. I plan to surround my self in a good environment that will allow my self to succeed and write in a forum to give me the strength when I just want to quit.