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Originally Posted by Wannabeskinny
Totally. My weightloss program requires that I address my emotional eating habits. In the past everytime I felt an emotion I would eat. Eventually my body learned that emotion=hunger. That meant I had no real physical understanding of what hunger is, I had become very disconnected with my body. I'm now learning how to detect hunger and to really feel the physical aspect of hunger. That means that all those emotions I was eating away are finally present in my life. Learning how to eat this way has not been easy, hunger is a simple physical alert system, it's no different than feeling the urge to use the bathroom, being thirsty, being too cold etc. But the emotions? Those are complicated - frustration, anger, lonelines, boredome, sadness, confusion etc... I have to learn all the necessary ways in which to cope with these emotions and that's the brunt of the work. The food part has become very easy now.
I was telling a friend recently that I finally feel alive now. Not the romantic movie version of feeling alive, I'm not running through a field joyfully with the wind in my hair and singing and smelling the flowers. No, I mean ALIVE - with a daily dose of normal every day emotions. Food has never cured any of these emotions and so food is inconsequential to me now, but dang, I didn't know I could feel so many things all day long. And worst of all, I didn't know that I used to be a walking zombie, eating everything and feeling nothing.
I just had to quote this because I totally agree 100%. I have always been an emotion represser. Back in my thinner days I guess I just didn't use food to do it. Now, I am really feeling stuff, a lot. But I really like that line above, eating everything and feeling nothing. Describes it to a T for me.