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I don't necessarily want to bash my sister, but this one situation is really bugging me. She has a tendency to judge things, (I don't think that is how she would see it but that is just what it is). I wasn't going to make my weight loss efforts a public thing this time around simply because I faced a lot of judgement in the past, not just from her but from a few people, and didn't want to deal with it this time, but then I decided that it is something kind of special, especially if I am successful, and that I would want to be sharing it with my family as I progress.
Okay so fast forward to now, I'm a month in. At this point I've started learning my limits with food, what will trigger bad habits, and what I will accept as a 'cheat,' (although I don't really do the whole cheat thing). We all know that this is delicate stuff, once you figure it out you have to kind of nurture your new habits and make them stronger so that you can lean on them for the rest of your life, because you are going to have to. And I am right in the swing of working on that.
About a week ago my sister was having a really horrendous week, I mean it was bad. She came over so that we (myself, two sisters, sister's husband) could go on a loooong stress walk together. I even suggested ice cream! This turned into going to the store and buying eggs, sausage, hashed browns, bacon, cinnamon rolls, OJ and pancakes to have a complete breakfast for dinner. It stressed me out a little bit because I knew it was going to seriously test my will power, but I wasn't about to dictate anyone's food choices either. I mentioned a fair few times how I was jealous I couldn't pig out because this food was going to be so good, (not in those words though haha), and my sister made a few comments back about how I should get over it.
Once we were home and cooking, I started punching foods into MFP to get a look at what I was really about to eat. Already you can see how quickly my mindset changed! lol I really hadn't wanted to eat at all because I KNEW I wasn't hungry, and I didn't need it. But it smelled good so I caved. And of course, it made me go over for the day but I decided not to sweat it because it was one lousy day, one meal.
I'm pretty sure I outwardly said no to the pancakes which added to the 'Carolyn is starving herself' fire, but what really made it blow up was when I said no to a cinnamon roll. And you know what? I HATE cinnamon rolls! I even said that! My sister just came back with 'Do you really not like cinnamon rolls, or are you just not letting yourself eat the cinnamon roll?' UGH! I tried not to let it worry me, but I spent the night internalizing it.
Now fast forward again to present time. While I wasn't home and my two sisters had a chance to talk, she basically said I'm not doing this in a healthy manner because I'm not letting myself eat. I would like to point out that I'm eating 2000 cals a day and I still eat processed, unhealthy snacks all day long, (read: chips and snack cakes), so as not to deprive myself of things I know I'm going to crave. I know it is unconventional, but that's how I'm doing it.
This has been bugging me for days. Weight loss is super personal, and it can only takes one person or one comment to shatter all of the confidence and progress you have built up. I'm not going to let that happen, but I want to understand WHY people say things like this that are so insensitive! She has not even asked me once what my approach is or what my diet is like, yet she's willing to say that I am doing this wrong.
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