Hi er-body,
I'm a 50 year old woman trying to lose weight for the 500th time. I feel like I have run out of time for messing around as I have the dreaded "metabolic syndrome" thing happening. That's right High Blood pressure, Pre-diabetes, High bad cholesterol, morbid obesity. I smoke cigarettes and I never exercise on purpose.
I spent my youth wanting to be slim and sexy, I have lost up to 100lbs before with Low Carb WOE. I've tried a crap ton of diets ( I'm sure none of this is new to a lot of folks here.) Now my goals have NOTHING to do with thin or sexy. I don't want to have a stroke or heart attack. Wah wah wah.
Here's the griping and complaining. This is the hardest thing I have undertaken ever. (Besides trying to be smoke free!) While I am doing well, I am finding it hard to be happy about it or positive every minute. I feel shaky about all this and I don't even trust myself at all to keep going. Food was my BEST PAL! I miss it and the relief I got from it almost instantly.
All this water drinking, exercising, counting, HYPER-vigilance feels well... difficult still. And, I never seem to get any emotional relief from exercising, even it feels stressful and like a lot of work. I hate my scale. Its been almost 60 days for me.
So thanks for letting me vent. I didn't want to gripe and complain to people face to face cause I'm not really looking for strokes or encouragement but I had to admit to someone that this still sucks for me. But, time has run out for me NOT TO CHANGE, so that is what I'm doing. I do feel a little guilty about being sooooooo negative though.