GAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
I have been on IP since September 3, 2013. I have followed it to the "T" - until now. Now, I have gone thru a phase of "I can have a little of this or that", until "this or that" has become "meh, why not more?".
I was doing so well! I was so strong and so hopeful and so pleased with my results! I no longer dread trying clothing on, and I am SO CLOSE to my goal!
Is this a case of being overly-confident? Am I just tired of the diet? Did I really mess up so bad I must return to IP Phase 1? I've been on Phase 2 going on 2 weeks. I am so mad at myself right now!
I have noticed that whenever we get a forecast of bad weather, I mentally think of eating whatever I need to in order to "survive" - like I like in Little House on the Prairie" or something!
I logically know what I am doing is foolish, and will lead to me feeling bad both emotionally and physically. I KNOW I have to change how I think about this "bump", and no, this bump will not thwart my long-term goals, but I am so frustrated!
If I had the financial ability, I would go back to buying food from my clinic. I just can't. The winter has wreaked havoc on my business - if people can't come to my office, I cannot get paid. Our BG&E bill has been much higher these past few months than "normal" winters. And then other financial stuff…there always is, it seems.
I just need encouragement, I guess. I wish I knew people in the Baltimore area that I could meet in person to talk to. I am glad I have given away my "too big" clothing - the threat of not having anything to wear is very real and pretty effective LOL!
Thanks for letting me vent