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Originally Posted by Beautsmc
No....not at all. I feel bad because my 9 month old son is going to look back and think he didn't have a mother! Aside from a few snapped of me holding him in the hospital, that is it as far as pictures go. I have a long way to go before I can walk past a mirror without feeling sick to my stomach. My coach said I should be proud of how far I have come...but all I can feel right now is disgust that I let it get so bad that I am in this position.
I have very few photos of myself through the years at family occasions and special events. I have often regretted this, as my DH is in all the pictures. I was usually taking them because that kept me from having to see myself. Now, I cringe right before viewing photos and then I am pleasantly surprised when I see myself. It makes me sad to see pictures of myself at happy events and remember how unhappy I always was, and to see how awful I looked.
Here's the thing, you are taking positive steps to change your life for the better. Give yourself a break and just know that there will come a time that you will feel better about the way you look. It is hard to start loving ourselves, when we have felt so bad about ourselves for so long. You will be amazed when you reach your goal!