My health has declined in the last 3 years or so and I am constantly sick and hurting. The doctors they haven't really come up with anything decent in regards to a resolution they keep saying its because I am fat. I don't have any medical diagnosed issue and have been tested for lots of things.
After being beat over the head hearing you just are too fat I said well the only way I'll get decent medical care is to loose the weight maybe I should do something drastic and have WLS.
I've attended two seminars one of which was last year and I put everything off because I thought I had to for insurance and now I know that is inaccurate so I've started over with the entire process. I wanted to do the band, but the last surgeon I met with explained they are on the way out because they are no longer lasting or holding up to the use I guess is a good way of saying it. I wanted the band because it was less evasive and I could remove it later if I wanted too. He said I should opt for the sleeve because of my current eating habits.
When I got sick some years ago I had to drastically change my diet not even because I wanted to but I had too so I don't eat processed foods, I don't drink soda, I don't really eat sweets or candy, I don't have any vices I can't live without and I even went vegetarian for about 200 days.
The surgeon said if I am not eating all those things then its a good chance I have horrid metabolism. IDK that could be I don't move around a lot either right now I have a sit down job and only get up for breaks and such.
I'm really scared to commit to the surgery being put to sleep is the scariest of it all it bothers me. My household family supports me, but my extended family does not and I haven't discussed it with my parents at all. I am not sure how they will respond.
Some days I can't even get out of bed and the world seems so dark to me on the inside and lonely. Not because I'm fat because I am totally comfortable with that - note this is why I'm fat because I love myself just fine the way I am. But I seriously can't handle being so sick all the time. I am so mean and rude to my family, and I am snappy everything annoys me. My mind can't get passed the pain sometimes and I just sit and sulk. I don't like that most of the time someone else has to do all the little things because I just can't do them.
I am also worried about what if after surgery I am still this sick? no one really can answer will I feel better?
My surgeon that I am seeing now is a training doctor totally up to date on all the procedures and techniques. He has also seen many types of patients and people and seems to have a good view on the issue. Its funny I know they have no crystal ball or anything but I wish I did to see what it will all end as?