Usually around 140-145 I went on a diet which turned ED and lost 25pounds very fast. Then of course I gained it all back.
Now, at least 6 co workers have come up to me and said
"Oh my goodness, have you gained weight?"
"What happened you were so skinny and pretty!"
"Yeahh... your legs, your face is getting bigger"
"You're gaining weight *squishes my arm*
To be honest I've been losing the binge weight, I can feel it. I was starting to feel good about myself until yesterday, yet again I had a ***** come up to me and squeeze my arm and ask me if I was gaining weight and how I used to be so skinny.
I'm so pissed off. I actually broke down crying later. How can you SAY something like that to someone? Do they realize how hurtful it is? Or how it makes me want to relapse back into not eating? It's disgusting and these are CNAS/Nurses who are grown women with kids (and they are average/slim) so they should know damn well what it does.
They're stupid. I've been lifting weights gaining muscle and losing slowly. Just because I'm not in the low 120s anymore. I've had SO many guys holler at me so obviously I still got it.
It just sucks because I hate myself so much, yet the moment I start getting my confidence and self worth back someone has to drag me down. I'm about to snap.