First I want to thank each and one of you for your advice and support, it means soooo much to me. Ive done well today, control wise, but in my head I want to go nuts and eat. I haven't been sleeping well and just feeling down with the crappy weather and financial problems.
I know Im doing better than I ever have with this binge eating, but I hate that I had a slip up. I am in weekly counseling for this so Im definitely taking steps to work on it. I think I need to re-try the Beck Diet Solution book along with IP.
Im bored too, that's a lot of it, bored and lonely, I haven't been out on a date since a really painful breakup earlier this year, I have this HUGE fear of being alone the rest of my life and that's when I go and comfort myself with food while watching TV. I curl up with my cats and eat and eat and eat.
I agree with getting rid of the trigger foods, they just cant be in my home, I live alone so I have no excuse to have them in my apartment.
Thank you all again! This is really freakin hard, I know if I don't change my ways I wont succeed in the maintenance phase and that's what I want, I want to spend the rest of my life in control of my food and my weight, I just cant keep going up and down in weight if I want to be healthy. Thanks everyone, you are a great virtual family
hugs to all of you!!!!