Hi girls. Sorry I haven't been around for a few days, but I didn't feel like posting. But I need some advice.
I've been kind of down at work, because my editor and a co-worker are having problems with each other and it's causing a huge amount of tension. This has been going on ever since I started here three months ago. I've also become friends with both of them, the reporter more, so I feel caught in the middle. The editor helped me get this job, although she's not a very good editor and that's a whole other set of issues. My DH tells me to stop feeling loyality to her because I would have gotten the job anyway and she just told me it was open. (which is probably true.)
Anyway, I know I'm babbling. Here's the deal: I finally saw a doctor today to talk about headaches I've been having, my allergies, and since I'm new to the area, just to establish a doctor. My weight clocked in at 200 on her scale, and now I'm scared to death I am never, ever, ever going to lose weight. I talked to her about it, and told her I had gained 15-20 pounds since November when I hadn't been a huge piggie (just a little piggie
). So she's testing to see if I have a thyroid problem, and also talked to be about weight loss medication, like Meridia. It scared me! First, you can't take it if you want to get pregnant, which I want this fall, it can cause high blood pressure and oh, yeah, insurance companies don't cover it and it would cost about $100 a month. BUT, my blood pressure was high today (it wasn't in February, the last time I saw a doctor), so I couldn't even go on Meridia right now.
The other thing? I guess I don't want to cross over into being really and truly fat and needed drugs to help me. Why can't I do this myself? All last week I tried to eat better and I went to the gym twice. Well, I gained a pound! I just don't get it and feel awful. What can I do? Should I try the drugs? Has anyone ever used them and do they work? Is it worth it to put off having a baby, even though I'm 30, DH's 35 and we don't want to wait much longer?
I know, a lot of questions. I can't even reach DH to talk because he's playing golf.