Hi everyone,
I have been 'trying' to get dieting for over a month now and blow it every day. I work out everyday but am slowly gaining and am soooo frustrated and angry at myself. I have a really healthy, satisfying meal plan, with a reasonable calorie goal; yet I just keep finding darn excuses.
I have been feeling sorry for myself, like it's harder for me than everyone else or something. I have had issues with binging/purging, and depression for a long time. I thought this last week that maybe I was a food addict and needed to avoid certain foods completely but now I realize I have been using that idea as another excuse to keep overeating!
I'm really over my whole attitude and just want to get on with it. I am over embarrassing myself by gaining weight when I say I am trying to lose it!!I CAN stick to a plan, I have done it before-though not for a couple of years now. I need an extra push in the right direction....something!!
I am hoping that by committing here to my diet that tomorrow I will be able to get on track.
Any words of wisdom appreciated, please. I am so tired of this groundhog day of starting the day well and then gradually slipping further and further until I've far exceeded my calories, or eaten junk, or binged and purged. Or all of them, usually.
Sorry for the negativity.