I've never been diagnosed as having PCOS (my family is not the type to have a family doctor; I was twelve the last time I had a physical done), but I've got almost all of the symptoms. The only thing I'm doing to try to regulate these is trying to lose weight.
I don't mind the fact that I have one period every few years, but
I hate the way I look, and I'm not talking about the shape of my stomach, my bat-wing arms, or my moon-crater thighs.
I hate the facial hair that takes me an hour or two to pluck just so I can leave the house for five minutes. I hate that I need to pull the hairs above and below my lips, my "sideburns", and my "beard" every three days (sometimes sooner).
I hate the fact that I'm self-conscious of wearing low-cut shirts not because I have small boobs, but because of the dark hair between my breasts.
I hate the trail of hair on my stomach and the manly thigh hair that lead me to believe it will be impossible to wear a two piece bikini when I do lose all of this weight.
All of those can be hidden or removed; they're awful, but they aren't the worst.
Above all else, I hate the bald/thinning area in the front of my head. I hate looking in a mirror because I hate seeing skin with sparse hairs on the top of my head, the size of my hand.
I hate that I have to part my hair alllll the way on the size and basically have a comb over to try to cover up the bald spots. I hate the fact that the wind blows my hair like crazy and exposes this secret to the world.
I hate that people's eyes trail upward to my head when they talk to me.
I hate that I let my friend convince me not to clip my hair in place so it wouldn't fall from it's covering position, and because of this, the picture I took with one of my favorite celebrities features my bald spot. I hate that I could spot it a mile away.
My hair has been thinning or balding since six years ago when I was sixteen. I first believed it was due to malnutrition from the six months I spent eating three Nutrisystem meals a day and nothing else. I only recently learned that people with PCOS experience hair loss as well.
I've tried Saw Palmetto, Vitamin D3, Biotin, and multivitamins; they haven't done anything to help.
So, I have a question that I'm almost certain will not have a positive answer, but...
Is there any chance that the hair on my head will grow back after I reach a healthy weight?