I feel like every week I'm trying to eat better, get to the gym and lose weight. I'm putting in the mental effort but in the end I always break, but because I'm putting in the emotional effort I feel so tired. I feel like I've been trying and trying with no results. I know realistically that it's because I haven't been able to say on any plan. Exercise is actually the easiest part for me because I really enjoy it.
I also enjoy health food, but this thing happens where I go day after day, counting calories/eating healthier and finally something inside me snaps and I just overeat. Then it's like I can't repair my brain right away. I just fall off the wagon until I have the mental energy to try again.
I'm not sure what's wrong. I'm pretty knowledgeable in health and fitness. I am doing it for what I think are the rights reasons. I don't severely restrict calories and I don't overexercise. I have plenty of non-food related hobbies. I don't use food to make me feel better. I don't use it when I'm bored. I drink water. I don't drink soda. I don't eat a lot of junk food and I enjoy lots of fruits and veggies. I even cook a lot, for a college student. I don't drink too much beer/alcohol.
Why can't I get it together? I know you gals probably won't have an answer, because we're all so different, but I just had to get it out there. It's been on my chest for a while. I'm devoted to college, to art, to music, to my foreign languages. I'm overcoming hurdles and improving in all those things. I just can't seem to get past this one hurdle when it comes to eating better and losing weight.