So, I've recently gained about 2lbs or so back, which isn't bad, since it puts me precisely at 54kg/119lbs, which is about where I want to maintain. But the day before yesterday, for some reason, the scale escalated and showed a weight about 5lbs above that. I knew I had been laxer with my eating, but I didn't expect to gain that much. So - instead of eating a little more like I used to during the losing phase the next day, I decided since this was a red-line-crossing, I needed to really get my stuff together. Which basically meant: screw being reasonable, I'm just not going to eat for the day. So I did. And what happens today, of course? Major rebound. I'm hungry, so hungry. Not so much during the day, but now that it's dinner time, I just chowed down something like 2 cups of cashews, and bread with cheese, and turkey breast. I wouldn't quite call it a binge as it wasn't completely out-of-control, but just this "I'm still hungry, how can I still be hungry?"-anxious eating behavior, which I don't welcome very much either. By now, I'm sure I've more than made up for the calories I didn't ingest yesterday.
So, lesson learned (again): no more extreme measures.
Do you guys have stories about hard-learned lessons on how much you can "push through it"?
(I think I really should buy that Intuitive Eating book. But I'm not ready to say goodbye to the scale yet. And I'm scared that I must do that. It seems like a little sacrifice for making peace with food and my body in return, ... just not there yet.)