Hi! - A little long, but I would love if someone would kindly take the time to read
So, a little background - I recently turned 18, and have finally decided that I'm ready to lose weight for myself. Not to get a date, to make my mother feel better - I know I need too, and I think I'm finally ready!
I have been overweight my entire life, and obese (I really hate that word) for probably at least a quarter of it. So, I have no idea what it's really like to feel "free" and not have weight weighing me down - Doctors would probably be happier if I were to lose around 150 - 200 pounds, but at this point I would be static to get under 300 (Because I haven't remembered being under that weight for the longest time!) And then probably even be happy with being around 250.
I'm 5'6 (Closer to 5'7) at 350 pounds - And I've never said that publicly, to a best friend, or even my own mother. My body shape is an apple, so most of my weight goes towards my stomach - If I could flatten that some, well we would be in business! Lol
I've tried losing weight before, and even Weight Watchers for a short duration, and I would see a little improvement, but nothing more and it was VERY discouraging for me, and with being young, it really has been hard for me to get back on the horse.
I don't like exercising, and it wouldn't be nearly as bad if I didn't have plantar fasciitis, causing my feet to hurt really bad when walking for just 10 minutes. I own an elliptical and plan to use it a lot more, but this is only my first week of Weight Watchers and I'm still really pushing myself to go out and exercise.
The eating part of it has been really good so far. I have a higher PP value, and I'm not using all of my points, and I'm not hating it either! I'm actually waiting to eat until I'm hungry for once. No emotional, or bored eating - The only problem is I know you're suppose to eat small meals and snacks, I'm mostly just eating meals and snacking at night (But I figure I can work on it as I keep going on!)
I have so many questions and worries about the weight loss, though - and then I remember that I only just started again this week (Which also gets me a little discouraged). I see people who have lost weight, and they look great - but then I get the fear of loose skin and when am I ever going to get rid of this double chin (I can deal with chubby cheeks!).
I guess I'm just fishing for some encouragement and any advice from current or form Weight Watchers users. I've read some posts that people have actually lost a decent amount of weight without working-out on the program. I know it's important, and like I said, I plan to get there.
I know I'm young, and it's still going to take a long time to lose the weight... slow and steady wins the race - but I'm still a little... scared, I guess.
This is almost a last resort. The only thing I can think of is weightloss surgery, and that feels like the biggest failure to me - I let myself get this far, and now I can't even get the weight off.