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Originally Posted by jitterfish
That made me smile because one of my fav weightloss sayings that I use to remind myself to keep going, as shown in my signature is "I've come too far to take orders from a cookie".
That's a great line, jitterfish! I'm going to remember that one. =smile=
Last night I was beseiged again with the urge for sweets—which for me is equivalent to the urge to binge. It was rougher than the previous time I mentioned: my brain was screaming LOUD in my head that I should get in my car, drive to the nearest convenience store or late-night grocery store, and buy LOTS of cookies, and some candy, too. I could literally feel my right hand
itching for the car keys.
But I wasn't actually hearing a voice: it was just a very powerful urge. I've read that some people, when they get psychotic, experience what are called "command hallucinations," where a voice is telling them to go do something. What happened to me last night, even though I wasn't "hearing voices," seemed a lot like a command hallucination.
It also felt as though I'm giving up a very heavy drug. I guess I shouldn't be surprised: I've been binging on sweets for nearly 50 years, and this is the first time I've commited myself to resisting the urges. I guess I never thought it was
possible to resist the urges, before reading Hansen's book. But it is... I managed to make it through last night without fighting or engaging in any way with the urge, without what's called "whiteknuckling." I just lay on the couch listening to music, and listening to the urge of course, until finally the urge faded away and I fell asleep.
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I will check out that book, I don't know what my triggers are really other than boredom.
That's the great thing about Hansen's technique: you don't have to know what your triggers are, you don't have to understand
why you binge, and you don't have to go through a bunch of psychotherapy.
Anyway, that's my update, currently working on Day 15, binge-free...