I know that NSVs are supposed to just happen but I decided to create some of my own sunshine today!! I'm glad they both worked out or I could have caused my own depression!!
I had a doctor's appointment this morning at 7am (I pick the early appts. on purpose!). The hospital is about an hour away but with traffic, it can take 2+ hours so we leave really early! Alarm went off at 4am, out the door just before 5, to the hospital with time to spare! But I had to fast....so no breakfast or coffee for me. Boo. My husband is so great, he wouldn't eat or drink anything til I could. I felt bad though, he didn't realize I brought my on-plan food since I didn't know how long we'd be in the city.
Sooo...on our way home, I asked him if he wanted to stop at the diner on the way to our house. (He thinks I'm trying to fatten him up since he's been losing weight and I'm catching up to him!) I can't eat at the diner but that's ok, I just wanted coffee. The BRAT called my bluff! He said "You just want to go to the diner to try out the booths!!!" I have such anxiety with this place as the last time I was there, I was with my skinny sister-in-law and I was stuffed in like a sardine. I smiled and said "maybe.......". And then I told him if I didn't fit, he wasn't getting breakfast as we weren't staying!!! NSV time----yayyyyyy!!!! I fit and then some, I exclaimed to him that I was normal!!! And then panic set in. What if we sat in a booth that was "big"? So I played musical chairs and snuck into another one. I swear I wanted to try to sit in every one of them just because I could (even the occupied ones LOL!!). Let me tell you, this was the best cup of coffee I ever had in my life. I told him I wanted to sit there all day long!!
We left there and I told him I wanted to go get a pedicure. The last time I got a pedicure it was so stress inducing. I just felt so large and unbalanced trying to maneuver between the seats and then not breaking my neck trying to maneuver afterwards without falling in the tub, etc. Today's pedicure, SUCCESS!!! I was as mobile and limber as anyone else there!!!
Just felt so good to be normal. I never ever thought I'd get this feeling back. If you haven't ever lived large, you won't understand. But if you have, this feeling is unreal. I am so motivated to make the rest of my life wonderful enough that I get this exhilarating feeling every day of my life. I need to have these feelings overpower the sad and anxious feelings I get sometimes.
So those are my manmade NSVs. I went on a treasure hunt for them and I found a pot of gold. So happy today!!
And I swear I'm not multiple personality after my post the other day. I just needed to post something good today.