I'm going away for the weekend to meet up with some friends. Tonight I'm going out with a friend and her friends for her birthday. Tomorrow I'm hanging out with some of my close friends. Anyway, I've gained quite a bit of fat this past year and I'm feeling really self-conscious about it. And I say gained fat because although I weigh about the same as last year (give or take maybe 2 pounds) I'm physically larger, and a lot flabbier. My clothes from last spring don't fit. I don't think my arms can get any bigger and I have bad muffin top without tummy control jeans. It's like I'm literally bursting at the seams.
From my friend's invite it sounds like tonight is going to be a bar crawling type of night. I hate that scene. I always feel so ugly among the smaller, prettier girls with their cute clubbing outfits. Since most clubbing clothes feature short(er) skirts and sleeveless tops, needless to say I don't really own any clothes for "going out." Trying to put together an outfit for tonight that won't make me look totally out of place has squashed all me feelings of wanting to go--and I didn't have that many to begin with.