Amy, I'm sorry you don't feel completely welcome. Actually, I think we ALL feel that at times to some degree. Some of us feel that we do a lot of nurturing and we don't get any back from certain people.
I like to get personal "notes" from people in their posts, but not everyone feels they have time to give that type of attention.
We can only give what we've got, and I understand where you're at.
hugs, sweetie...