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I had a bit of a attack yesterday when my cousin's wife called re my dad. He's on the warpath again. I've had 2 weeks of stress related to selling the house, health issues, working waaay too much, 2 dogs dying, and very unco-operative weather.Originally Posted by ChrisMohr
As I've said in the "Having a Rough Time" thread Jen Cherrypie just set up, I had a week of setbacks: money worries, mild depression, self-medicating with food, low self-esteem, feeling unworthy of being in this maintenance group at all. I guess many of us have these setbacks, but I sure don't want this one to last any longer!
I have been eating all sorts of junk, not weighing, and generally being bad to myself. I am now consciously pulling myself out of this rut I've fallen into. Not going to be easy - Dh's birthday celebration is tonite with cake and wine and he gave me my Valentine's chocolates today.
I specifically asked him not to get me chocolate. He wants them, in addition to the ones I gave him on V-day. I will give him half the box and take the rest to my dog sit. I will eat one per day - probably keep them at my house across the street (the sold one - closes March 28). I will sit down and enjoy the chocolate with no distractions. I'm finding my body no longer wants any more than one or two chocs and really reacts badly to any more than that for several days.
Tonite I will have one glass of wine with dinner (we usually drink alcohol after dinner while watching TV later on) and my small piece of cake soon after that. Then, when the alcohol/sugar/fat cravings hit I will go for a walk in the freshly fallen fluffy snow. Hopefully i will not wake up at 2 in the morning with my head pounding and feeling like I'm going to pass out (which happened last night after 3 beers drunk to calm myself).
If I were listening to my body I would be a very healthy person 100% of the time. It really is starting to mutiny against my brain's more destructive tendencies. About time - I'm almost 56 years old.
Dagmar no more!