I went into a treatment program for an eating disorder, and now the therapists think I also have depression. Ugh, two issues to deal with.
It's strange because, even though depression runs in my family, I never really thought I might have it. I guess I thought it meant that you were constantly sad. I am rarely sad and don't cry much. But apparently, it isn't necessarily about sadness, but about being in a constant state of feeling "down" and never having any "up" moments.
I just thought I was an unemotional person. I struggle when have to think of times when I have strong emotions, either positive or negative. I also can't remember the last time I actually felt really happy or excited about something. It's just like a never-ending state of just existing - not necessarily sad, but more of a hopelessness that I will ever feel happy.
Is this what depression is like for some of you?