So I've been dieting for a couple of months now and have lost about 20lbs. I started at 292 so I have a long way to go (I am 5'9).
The interesting thing, is that because I am taking care of my body now - I am more in touch with my body. I think that when I am not eating healthily, I am very disconnected from my body (and very much in denial).
Now that I'm more connected, I realize just how fat I am and have MORE self loathing than I had before I started dieting. Anyone else experience this?
I just rationalize that now I AM DOING SOMETHING about it and will see success. It's just weird to all of a sudden just be so disgusted with myself for ever letting myself get to this point. Anyone else feel that way?