I can not tell you how many times I have gone through the cycles of loosing weight and eating healthy and then just deviating from my healthy habits. This is getting really old. The last 2 years have been horrible. I have gained 80lbs over the last 2 years. I just need to jump on the bandwagon and get through and be healthy for myself. I seem to always do good for a few weeks and then I start to get the cravings for junk food and thats it. My boyfriend is super supportive and does not push me to loose weight but he always makes little comments like "that shirt looks tight on you", "why dont you keep some of your smaller clothes for when you get smaller". It hurts my feelings and I dont let him know that. I guess he just says things like that without really thinking about it. I have looked into joining Weight Watchers but I have not been keen on dishing out $50 a month when I already have so many other bills to deal with. I feel like I really do need the extra help when it comes to being motivated. I have gotten myself to the point where I am not binging as much as I have, especially waking up in the middle of the night every night and going on a binge. Some other things in my life have evened out and I am feeling better and having more energy during the day. I never wanted to get where I am right now with my weight. I feel gross and I know that it is not healty for me to have all of this extra weight on myself. I guess I just need some advice. I have tried diet shakes such as slim fast and adkins but those have pretty much always failed because I have such a sweet tooth. I have gotten better during the last few weeks and I think that I am ready to get back on the bandwagon to make a change for good. I just needed to rant and hopefully have someone give me some sort of advice and hope that someone will ready my super long rant
:rolleyes