I don't even know where to begin. I'm on here less and less because I feel not worthy of reading everybody's successes. It is getting to where I have more bad days then good ones. Last week I thought I had finally pulled out of my funk. But it only took one day that messed with my routine, and down the tubes it went. It starts with being out of the house and not getting my water in. That seems to lead to to not getting my veggies in, then not getting my pills in. Now with missing all that, it has lead to binges on bad things. Everyday I wake up and tell myself it is a new day, just follow the plan like you know how to. Well, it is not working. I don't know why I can't get over my mental laziness. Lazy is the only thing I can come up with. Like today, I just don't feel like drinking the water, or making my lunch. I have had my supplements, only on my second bottle of water (should be on my 4th), and had a EAS RTD to drink for lunch because it was easy. But no veggies. So today is not a total loss yet, but I feel it will be if someone doesn't give me a swift kick in the ***!!!
All I have to say for those just starting, DON'T CHEAT!!!! It is so not worth it. I miss the way I felt when I was 100%. It is a million times harder to get back on plan once you have slipped.
I want to feel excited about IP again. But I keep getting in the way of myself. But, after typing this, and admitting my faults, I feel better, like a weight has been lifted. I haven't told my husband I haven't been doing well, because he will try to tell my what I need to hear while stuffing his face!!
I really do hope this made some kind of sense!! Sorry if it didn't, maybe I just needed to admit out loud what I have been doing. Thank You for listening.