Hey youu <3
I know how you feel, really. I'm 19- I've spent my entire life saying that I'd do anything I could to be thin because I hated myself SO much. I could hardly look into mirrors ._.
Hate takes a lot, a lot A LOT of energy. It's draining to constantly hate yourself. It isn't motivating or inspiring. It's an energy suck.
I noticed you've lost five pounds. I started at a similar weight (and I'm shorter than you
) doesn't it feel nice to see those five pounds gone, knowing it's not just a fluke or fluctuation, but that you earned that -5 pounds? Maybe 5 pounds doesn't feel like a lot, but 5 pounds is a lot
http://www.onemorebite-weightloss.co...t-v-muscle.jpg
It starts with five pounds, five turns into ten, into twenty, into fifty...
If you spend all day letting self-loathing suck all of your energy out of you, you're going to have a HARD time succeeding.
We all start like this, I think.
Do you have issues with depression? Why don't you make this weightloss journey a full makeover? That's what I'm doing. I'm changing my body, my mind, strength, I'm making over my self esteem and my outlook on the world. All of that started with me getting on a depression medicine that worked for me. So if that might be an issue, start there!
Make a plan for yourself. Set realistic goals. Don't let yourself fall back into this pattern of hating yourself. You -can- do this but it all starts in your mind.
Feel free to PM me at any time if you need anything. Like I said we're similar ages starting in similar places, with a similar starting view point and everything is easier when you're not doing it alone.
<3