im just writing and posting because i keep things in my head too long...ive had such sinus problems and sore throat this weekend and i know it's because i spent two days inhaling dust in my classroom...and sometimes at night, when i'm home alone with everything done, i just get overwhelmed with sadness and i'm not sure where it even comes from
im stressed because i start the winter program at my school tomorrow...on my own, with no staff, with new students, with no computer hooked up and a ton of things that i still need to do...i'm sad that i wont be seeing the students that i worked with all summer because they are at another school...im still getting used to the idea that my baby boy is going off to high school...i dont think i even LOOK like a high school mom
but some days i just feel so very very old
on top of the motorcycle accident this week that took someone's life...today we learned that someone from our village committed suicide last night
i didnt know him but he was the BIL of someone that i know very well...and i know he was out last night looking for his BIL only to find him dead...and i know that family is grieving and i dont have any way to reach any of them in the village...and i want so badly to reach out to them and i cant
i dont know whats wrong with me to be so very very sad tonight and emotional....or if i'm even making any sense