Belinda, YOU ARE
NOT FAILING MISERABLY!!!!! You have recognized that you are having a hard time and have reached out for help, for support, and for friends to kick you in the butt
to help you get your mojo back.
My friend, I have just gone through a hellish week of not being on plan, leaving the teaching profession to become a nursing student, financial difficulties, etc.
I did what you have done: I posted and asked for help. Take a look at the handle you gave yourself: "Small Steps"; this journey that we share begins & continues with small steps. Take a small step and get back on plan for one minute. If you can do it for one minute, then go for ten minutes and so on. Maybe it is just focusing on drinking your water or exercising. The main thing is to never give up!!
We love you
and I join with kaplods in becoming your drill instructor
because I know that if the situation were reversed you would be the first one to kick my behind. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and take those small steps to getting back on track!