I am terrified at this moment because its the first of April and I have no clue where to start. I want and need to lose weight, I am 5feet and like 3 inches tall with a medium to heavy build, and I weigh at this moment around 375lbs. I've been big all my life, as far back as I can remember. I have tried diet after diet but because I have never had any motivations or I start to fail; I automatically set myself up to fail, i suppose. Now, I have motivations but do not know where to start. What should I do first? Im so lost because I have to lose as much of this extra weight as possible before my wedding. I have a dress picked out but Im terrified that if i cannot lose any weight that I will have to change the dress, and i wouldn't look good in any. my other motivation is my six year old son, I have promised that I would be able to ride a bike by the end of the summer, and I do not want to break my promise to him..
I need all opinions, good or bad. Where should I start, how do I start? I am so lost and confused that I deep down feel like a failure and there isn't anything that I can do...I know this sounds childish and silly but please help.