Reena, you get credit for providing me with an accountability partner. It doesn't matter that you've been here for a shorter time, you're here when I needed you and I appreciate that. It's really helpful to me that I can come here and be straight about my weaknesses and when my plans fail and my head is not in the game, and I can talk it all out and get back on track. I appreciate being able to come here and share my successes, even if they're not a giant drop on the scale or inches off my inner thighs. And you've been here to listen to me and every other woman who comes here, to offer a virtual shoulder and pass around virtual hugs.
(I go to another website for support as well and they don't have any of those darling smilies! It's run by a couple of guys and their smilies are very unemotional.)
I'm happy that you have real freedom ahead of you really soon! It's a wonderful thing! I just love being truly free and unattached. When we are not having to hold back who we are and can live in authenticity and integrity, there is joy! I still have moments when I feel sad for being without a partner, but then I think about what I'll give up in order to have one and I don't truly believe I can find joy in the prospect of giving myself up again. And then the sadness melts away. I'm really comfortable on my own and by myself when I need to be, but I have lots of really good friends now too.
So, today I woke up with a high blood sugar. I had a big dinner which included bread and too much protein. When I do that, I seem to have higher blood sugars in the morning. I'm going to try to have my bigger meals at lunch from now on.
I really struggle with having regular meals. It seems to be important for people with diabetes, but I've never been someone who can do the regularly scheduled life. I don't go to bed at the right time, when my kids are home on weekends and during the holidays I sleep in...it's a cascade effect. Maybe it's time for me to figure out how to be more on a schedule.
Have a great day, my chickies! Catch you later!