I am not sure if anyone else will relate but this has been on my mind A LOT lately.
I have been what you would call a bigger girl pretty much my whole life. I was 10-12 when I developed hips and my butt. My legs were NEVER sticks. I wore a size 10 in grade school. I NEVER fit in clothes from Abercrombie, Banana Republic, Express and so on. I remember thinking as a young child/teenager that something was wrong with me and that I was disgusstingly fat because I didn't fit the mold. I was told I was overweight and gosh every store my friends shopped in said I was because 15 years ago plus size was anything over 12 in most of these stores.
I guess I never really paid to much attention as the lbs packed on later in life because well "I was already fat, what was a few lbs"? Well looking back now and seeing pictures of myself throughout the years.... I WAS NOT FAT... Was I slightly pudgy maybe. Did my ***, hips and thighs look crazy big next to my 90lb cousin who has NO curves? YES! Did the clothes that were POPULAR flatter my figure? Not so much! As a teenager at 16 I had a fabulously curvy body that I HATED! At 30 now that I realize that I had a different shape that I would kill for today.
How is it that we are taught to self loathe ourselves to this point?