Coaches/Buddies
Thank you so much for your kind words about my mom. Your support means everything to me.
I am in the midst of getting papers together to settle mom's estate and collecting her furniture and other effects from her villa at the retirement home. It is a daunting task! She was a definite pack rat. I have been thinking hard about this for the past few days. Hope you don't mind me dumping some thoughts here. She was not a hoarder as depicted on tv. There was no mountain of junk preventing her from sleeping in her bed. In fact if you went into her villa you would think she was neat (some of this doubtless due to her neatnik companion, Dave). But she had one area in her study where she kept her papers that was a mess and she had stuff stashed in little nooks and crannies all over the place. She must have 30k photos, going back to the last century. Now this stuff is all in my house and I have to sort through it.
I am the same way. Neat on the surface, but pack ratty in reality. How does this relate to weight loss and Beck? The stuff that I stash away from sight is stuff that I don't want to deal with...I'd rather lose myself in a tv program, drinking a glass of wine and noshing on almonds, than sort through the things I don't want to see. This is the type of behavior that has sabotaged me throughout life...I become deliberately unconscious around food, hiding from myself what I am really eating. One of the benefits of Beck is that she makes you examine all these weird behaviors. But change is hard....
I am sorta back. Yesterday I hauled out my cards and planned my meals. Need to reconnect with the green book. I am still stuck on the "no choice" part of the resistance techniques.
BUT I am so blown away by everyone's creativity and successes here:
Beverlyjoy: glad to hear you are recovering
Lexxiss: credit you for deciding food is not an emergency and all the exercise
Onebyone: your exhibition sounds great. Congratulations! Oh and it must be so nice to discover your ribs!
BBE: You are an inspiration. Congrats on the OP eating.
fyreflie24: Congrats on reaching "overweight." That is a big accomplishment
Gardnerjoy: Yay for plans!
Erika: Congrats on the running. Me too. I've started couch to 5k. Also Rachmaninoff recital--Excellent!
Maryann: here's to forward steps.
Pamatga: love the virtual walk challenge idea.