I was at goal for about 5 months, but it was not easy. It was actually a constant struggle. I was thrilled with my appearance but was binge eating on a regular basis and working out to exhaustion trying to avoid gaining. Over the last 3-4 weeks, the weight started creeping up and then about 2 weeks ago, I threw in the towel and just started binge eating all day long. Full force. It was like I was on a mission to regain all of my weight. I was feeling sick all day from the binge eating and I got stuck in a viscous cycle where I felt horrible so I ate horribly to try to make myself feel better at least temporarily.
Well today, I decided to face the scale and I weighed myself. I was up 15 lbs. Actually, maybe even more because I did get to 146 lbs. but I'm just not going to worry about that....I know that my body feels much better when I'm at 150 or below. The high end of my semi-comfortable weight is 155 so I really want to lose 10 lbs. so that I can fit into more clothes.
I worked out this morning (at 5:30 a.m.) for the first time in a long time and have kept very active all day long, logging my food intake and just staying on track. I'm not going to let the holidays derail me. I must get back on track.
I've been at this crossroad before and I have gained back as much as 70 lbs. I absolutely must lose and get back to where I feel best. I just wanted to post this because I'm hoping that it not only helps someone else who might be either going through it or at risk of going through it and I also hope that it will be more real and more tangible.
Thanks for letting me post this and for reading.