Waking up this morning and getting on the scale to find that I'm up 2kg from my low a couple weeks back was a slap in the face. I'd been getting away with intermittent exercise and keeping my calories below 1400; I even managed to lose 11kg (at that lowest weight). But I haven't exercised in two weeks, mostly due to illness but partially due to my unwillingness to work around that illness. Beyond the exercise though, I'm finally recognizing and admitting that most of the calories I eat aren't of quality or substance. I may have stayed under 1400 on a given day but my dinner was composed of string cheese, "mochipuyo" cream puff-like dessert and a convenience store sandwich on white bread.
Therefore, today I'm making a commitment to eat better calories–vegetables, fruits, lean meats, raw nuts, et cetera–and avoid bad calories as much as possible. My first goal is to avoid the convenience store for today, and I want to keep meeting that goal day after day.
It's going to be a learning curve because there's no question in my mind that I'm addicted to simple sugars and fatty, low quality fare, but I want to stop feeling crappy about the way I'm losing weight. I want to shed my dependence on the convenience store and start thinking about a health picture that's broader than just calories.