I know that this place isnt meant to be a therapy place but couples sex therapy doesnt exist in port hardy..and quite frankly..im angry..im angry to the point of tears..
Is this normal? Seriously..
Ive been with my fiancee for almost 3 years. We have a beautiful little girl. Before are little girl, we had a great sex life..every day or every two days..then i got pregnant..and then it was down to nothing..then we had her and it was great for a month and then it became.. once every week..and now once every two weeks.
ONCE EVERY TWO WEEKS!!!!! seriously!!!!
For the past two and a half years i have been asking him to make a change and make it consistent.. i want a consistent sex life.. i want it every couple of days..not once a week or once every two weeks..it doesnt matter how great or how bad our lives are going..nothing changes in that department..and when i ask him why..the only excuse he ever uses is " it feels like too much pressure"... TOO MUCH PRESSURE!!! i lowered my expectation and said "well what about every 3 days" and did that work? well..for maybe two to three weeks..and then he went back..to 1 every two weeks..
Come on..he is 32 and im 25..is their something wrong with this freaking picture to anyone else!!! we should be at it like rabbits..we are in are prime young years..and instead he is acting like a freaking 80 something year old..and trust me there is no issue in getting it up...
The part that makes me cry the most is the fact, that i feel like its all my fault..like im not good enough for him..that im not attractive enough for him to want to sleep with me.. or the sex isnt good enough...or im too fat..or too ugly..i know i dont look pretty like i did when i met him... ive been trying to diet to lose weight..and ive been losing the weight loss battle..and im just getting bigger..and maybe im just not attractive anymore.
Im so freaking upset..and i feel so hopeless...
I mean.. other girls want diamonds and makeup and jewlery and money for clothes and cars and nice stuff..and all im expecting is some intimacy and romance in a physical way more than just once a week.. and he cant even give me that..
Why is it that im in love with this amazing man who cant give me the one thing i really want from him?
Maybe i should just ask him to buy me the moon and a few stars.
-End of rant.