At the end of July this year, my boyfriend and I decided to break up after nearly 1.5 years of being together. We fought a lot, and our relationship was going nowhere. Not to mention family issues between us. Anyway this was in July. We were still in contact, occasionally chatting on facebook, but I haven't seen him since the breakup. We didn't always get along while we were in contact, and at the end of October he decided to end all contact with me because he wanted to "make a proper effort to move on", and deleted me off facebook.
Its been 4 months since we broke up, and 1 month since I've spoken to him, yet I still feel so bitter and resentful towards him, and if I find out that he is interested in another girl, I know I will be so hurt, not to mention furious. I keep looking at this chick's facebook page (whom he has sort of become uni friends with after the breakup and went to her for advice) to see if there's anything going on between them. I don't know why I care, and I know that sounds so pathetic, but it bothers me. I think part of the reason is that I don't want to see him totally moved on in a new relationship before me (and also so soon after breaking up). I had a dream about them last night that they were a couple and I was so angry. Also I still feel extremely lonely. I don't know if I just miss being in a relationship or if I actually miss him. How freaking long does it take to fully get over someone?! I'm scared i'll never move on. I don't love him anymore, haven't spoken to him in a month, so what's wrong with me?!