My name is Vona, I am 31 years old 5'7 and as of this morning I weigh 209 lbs. I am ashamed!!!
I have had 3 children and after I had my 2nd child I weighed 174lbs that was the most I had ever weighed and I was embarrassed and I hid under baggy clothes because to myself I was ugly. Today I would give anything to be that weight again. If I don't have to go out anywhere most of the time I don't even walk out the door. And when I do have to go somewhere I hide under baggy clothes because I feel soo horrible. I have tried several exercises and diets my problem is I HATE food. I eat enough to keep me from getting that "sick" feeling but I don't get enough calories in me to sufficiently lose weight. My exercising isn't doing any good without the right amount of calories. I do good when I have someone telling me what to eat and when and how much. But most plans are outrageous like Nutrisystem and Jenny Craig. I did weight watchers a couple years ago and I lost 40 lbs but it's so hard to stick with it. I could beat myself up over not sticking with it. I do beat myself up mentally all the time and I'm ashamed for me to see myself much less my hubby or anyone else. Please help me!!! I am on my knees praying to God that someone can help me to get back down to my original weight at 145lbs...I'll even settle for 150 lbs.