I moved out of my parents house about 2 months ago, and since then I've slowly been allowing myself to eat more and more garbage...I'm at 174 right now and have been stuck here for two weeks. I'm guessing I've probably gained like 5lbs (I can feel it) in the past week from all of the crap I've been eating. Last night was bad, I binged on 1/2 of a pizza, tons of hot cheetos, dorito's, fudge rounds, regular soda, chips and dip...I want to cry just thinking about it. My best friend who has always supported me is obviously disappointed in my lack of willpower. Today I've eaten nothing but hot cheetos and doritos. I don't want to eat this junk, I feel sick like I want nothing more than a big grilled chicken salad (mmm). I don't want any GREASE! The thought of french fries etc is making me feel ill.
The thing is, I'm usually on Atkins so my kitchen is stocked with a lot of fatty foods and I don't want to eat anything like that right now. I thought about ordering a delivery salad from a restaurant but I can't seem to justify spending $15.00 on a chicken salad. I don't have a car and it's raining or I would walk.
I need to go back on my plan, I just don't know if I have the willpower for it right now. Can someone please yell at me to get me back on track? I want to be 120 so badly. I feel like I've ruined everything and everyone (including me) thinks I'm a failure because I've been binging on pizza and chips. I feel like I can't do it anymore.