middlesis - thanks for the info (and the PM). I've been doing a little soul searching myself - I think I'm starting to "get it".
txtam - i hope you are finding support here, I post on several different threads and have found the variety of subjects and views have helped a great deal!
I've been really looking inside myself lately. In one way I want to lose weight so my family and friends will be proud of me - although deep down I know they already are and it has nothing to do with weight and physical appearance, but everything to do me and my accomplishments.
I am getting into the mindset of HEALTH, it is very unhealthy for me to be this fat, it is also very unhealthy for my daughter to see me struggling with food all the time. I need to get a handle on this for my own physical health & for my daughter. If I don't get my body healthy, I'll never live long enought to enjoy seeing my daughter go to school, college, get married, have kids - I want to retire & enjoy life, not spend it in doctor's offices and hospitals.
I think with these kinds of goals I am really starting to get my eating under control & am making conscious decisions to do what I do, eat what I eat. Unfortunately, I'm still struggling with exercise - but I'm working on a plan for that, too!!
Thanks for the reply's, it's nice to know I'm not the only one out there & that there is hope for all of us!!
Roo
[This message has been edited by KangaRoo (edited 02-21-2001).]