Hey everyone,
I have been on and off my diet and workout routine for a several months now...I was doing great and then (TMI but...) TOM never came. I took a pregnancy test and it was negative. Its going on three months now and still no period, I took two more tests and still negative. This ENTIRE time I have been going through all the horrible bloating and cravings. Food has been the only thing I have been able to think about, even though I KNOW I'm not hungry. I found I've been Closet Eating which I NEVER did before! I don't know what the **** is wrong with me, if I'm just in a funk or stressed out or what; life has been rather stressful for me.
I have always had full control of what I ate and it feels like "I'm" not the one in control anymore. I even have fights with myself when making decisions on what to eat now. Why is this so hard all of a sudden?!
I was literally 1 lb away from my goal...the goal I made for myself when I first started my weight loss journey; To be 140lbs - A healthy BMI. I am now 167lbs, almost on the boarder of Obese. This is devastating to me. I know I can get back down, I have my whole life to reach my goal, but at the same time I feel so unmotivated and depressed.
I've restarted Jillian Michaels 30day shred: going to do 15days of level 2 and 15 days of level 3. I'm on day 3 today.
But its never been working out thats the problem, but the eating...I need some serious control over my eating...UGH.
Maybe I just need to spend more time here like I used to, I really do miss it here.