My head's in a bad place today, so take that in mind with this major pity post. I think my problem is that I'm scared to mow my lawn. Stupid huh? I've never mowed a lawn in my life and it's looming like some test I have to pass in order to prove that I can handle my life. I'm terrified of failing because if I fail...I will fail at being a mom, a house keeper, and will just plain fail at life. Drama queen much? Yeah, I know. But that's how I feel right now. It will pass.
BUT...that's not what this thread's about!
Threads all over this board talk about how people treat you differently when you've gone from fat to thin. The typical complaint or comment is that you're treated better, with more respect and that doors "magically open".
I think I'm experiencing the opposite and it's really starting to mess with my head. Women look me up and down and are constantly commenting on my clothes, or snarling at my cleavage.
And men? Well, men flat out ignore me. They used to smile and as I've always had a very easy nature around men, they used to befriend me. Now, I'm invisible. How on earth did I go from a friendly face to whatever the heck I am now? I mean, most men actually turn their nose up, look over my head (not hard to do) and sometimes I get evil looks. I'm not talking about men that I know. They haven't changed at all. I'm talking about men just passing by.
And at the gym this morning? Geesh! I was doing sets on a machine and had completed 1 of 3. I had it all set up, which is a struggle for short women. There's a component I had to move high above my head and it's a struggle and another component that needs to be switched out. Anyway, these two guys came over as if I wasn't even there, changed it all around and got set. So I headed over to an identical machine that has two ropes, and I only need one. So I asked this guy if I could use the one, and he explained he had two more sets. I thought, sheesh...so did I. Feeling a bit forlorn, and short on time, I moved on my merry way. The only consoling factor was that another guy (one who NORMALLY totally ignores me) came up and said, "You know, if those two guys weren't so busy checking each other out, they might have noticed you were there." That made me feel a bit better, I admit. Come to think of it, this same guy lowered a barbell for me yesterday. I accidentally set it up too high with 140 pounds of weight on it. He noticed it right away, stepped in and lowered it for me.