Hello chickies,
I'm coming off a very very bad day. The last few weeks have just been AWFUL. I'm hyper stressed about a bunch of things, and for some inexplicable reason, after getting myself up to running 4 miles at a time with a good fast pace, all of a sudden, I just quit exercising. That was about 3 weeks ago.
I looks like when I stop exercising, I can't handle my stress any more.
I've been overeating every single day, and the scale shows it. I'm up FOURTEEN pounds from my lowest weight, from mid-October. Most of that gain has been in the last week.
Up until now, I was barely hanging on to my plan by my fingernails... overeating, yes, but still holding to the basic elements of my plan. Not binging. (I'm a binge eater...)
Then a couple of days ago, it all fell apart, and I started doing stuff like handfuls of Vanilla Wafers and crackers and extra slices of bread and peanut butter.
Yesterday, everything seemed fine but when I got home from work I was really hungry because I'd been on plan all day... I started a little nibbling before dinner, an orange, a crust of bread-- and then somehow, after dinner, I ended up in a FULL OUT BINGE. I felt completely sick and glassy eyed and JUST HORRIBLE. That is the first time I've done that since before June 2009.
So, here is what I think is going on.
My life is entering a phase where I'm very stressed and feel totally inadequate and insecure.
And I think for me, exercise is the key for managing my stress and managing my stress is the key for not binging.
So, here's my plan. Start exercising again. Go back on plan, but keep my calories relatively high and make sure I never get super hungry....
Start checking in here again.
That's all for now.