Maybe some of you, I hope, will relate to this, others might just think I'm whacko. I'm at a size now where I'm straddling plus sizes and normal sizes. I've been wearing size 18 in jeans, but I sit in them once and they stretch out too big. I bought what I thought looked like a small 18 from the plus section the other day and didn't try them on till I got home...they were too big. So, today I went shopping and went to the non-plus side. I instantly felt out of place, anxious, nervous...like people were looking at me thinking what the heck is she doing here, she should be on the plus side. Of course, no one said anything, but I had it in my head they were staring. I got so upset and self conscious that I just finally grabbed the first size 16 pair of jeans that didn't feel like too heavy of a material, threw them in the cart and rushed out of the section. :-(
I thought I had calmed down, then I get to the checkout and I get all embarrassed and nervous again when the clerk unfolds the jeans and scans the tag. I was just waiting for her to ask if they were for someone else or did I get the right size, or give me a look, whatever. Geesh, it was so stressful! Am I nuts?! I just tried them on and guess what? They fit! Zip up and I can breathe and bend...they are a tad snug in the calves because my calves are huge from carrying 340 pounds around for years. But, they look alright. Still, I don't think I'll try going clothes shopping again by myself. I'll take my friend next time. I think I'll wear the 16's till they fall off me....then I'll get a belt. Lol